keeping a clear conscience!

just a bit of my thoughts as i was sharing today's QT  [utmost highest -- http://www.utmost.org/] with my cell group::

ahh! it's so hard to keep a clear conscience. but it's so true that we have to be obedient in keeping a clear conscience before God because if not, it'll turn into a habit of turning it around to ourselves rather to God.

as i shared with my cell group last night, one of my bad habit is putting myself down, thinking that i can't do anything or not good enough. but instead of me thinking that i was opening myself to hear what God is trying to me tell me, i turned it around to "me me me." and that's not how it should be.

to answer this question "Is my ear sensitive enough to hear even the softest whisper of the Spirit, so that I know what I should do?" -- i would have to say no. my mind and body has been clouded by my thoughts about what i think about me and how others might see me as. my ear hasn't been sensitive enough to hear the softest whisper of God. even through the storm, Jesus did not yell to quiet the storm (when Jesus was sleeping and the disciples were totally freaked out about the big storm that came). Jesus said it in a calm voice to quiet the sea and the wind.

"When you begin to debate, stop immediately. Don’t ask, “Why can’t I do this?” You are on the wrong track. There is no debating possible once your conscience speaks. Whatever it is— drop it, and see that you keep your inner vision clear."

just as it says in the QT, i pray that we will learn to be quiet and sensitive to what God has to tell us as we open our hearts towards Him and evaluate ourselves every time to make sure that our intentions/motives behind our action is glorying God.